I imagined my apartment door being knocked on. It was Jesus, my Lord standing outside. He was ready to claim me and for me to walk with him. At first I was scared and a little nervous. I shivered and wondering why it was so soon and felt bad because it would be my judment day today too. I know that I have been a sinner and have been wasting a lot of his precious time on my life and blessings that he has given me on my self and my sinful desires. Would I be good enough, in my heart I felt that I was not good enough for Him, that I was going to be shamed in Heaven. But then I saw the light in his eyes and he was proud of me. I was still his child, and even Fathers love the bad ones. I hoped that the Father would love me enough.
I also thought about my time here on earth and all the things I oughta accomplish, people to love, and injustices of society to change. It would have been sad for myself to have been claimed by the Lord so young. I have been thinking about this because of Mandy's sister and her family recently passed. Also I have been thinking about Nicole who had passed a year ago in a car accident, she was my age, and more devout than me. She is definately walking with the Lord.
But mortaility is a reminder that we do not own ourselves. We are the property of the Lord, and when he thinks the time is right, he will reclaim his prized pocessions. We are his children and given the opportunity to grow our souls to maturity. Sometimes he takes his children out of the classroom of life and back home for awhile.
What are you going to tell the Father your learned in the classroom of life?
I'm going to tell him I learned to love people for who they are. I'm going to say I learned a lot about science and math to explain the existence. I love learning.
God Bless you all,
-Katie
