Just remember: all dreams are ways of working out stuff that happens during the day and things that we are afraid of or otherwise are intensely focused upon. Freud might say that they all have to do with sex and/or death. The duckling may represent fear of responsibility for a child (longing for fulfillment of sexual desire?)... as a very religious person, that is sublimated as the act of becoming a mother, but really just means you may be full of desire AND scared of the consequence of sex as a result of years of repression due to a strict religious upbringing. Please note I did not make the statement that that is bad. It is, of course, wise to be cautious, and you certainly have wisdom. It always bothers me when someone accuses me of repression of my desires...please realize that I do not make these comments as criticism of religion. I think it is great to struggle with one's desires...it builds character. I deeply admire anyone who is dealing with this struggle and doing all the things you are attempting in life. I think God grants us our rewards to the extent that we are able to handle them. You have a lot of rewards coming in the future...at least if you don't expect them as your due. I have a whole lot of opinions, but I am quite frequently right. Forgive me if I am merely projecting my own struggles onto your life. Also, please forgive my armchair psychoanalysis. (If you're the one that sent me the friendship note, THANKS!)