So today is the anniversary of my mom's death.. well technically yesterday was (september 4th). Got to remember that. I can not belivee I forgot the year. It was one week exactly before september 11th and I thought that was 2002, when it was 2001. I think my mind has problems...

Wow, this was a beautiful picture of my mother
Geraldine Williams

In Loving Memory Of Geraldine Williams 9-4-01 Thinking of You with love on your 5th Anniversary in Heaven. Ed and Lupe
Published in The Times on 9/4/2006.

Her brother and sister-in-law posted the memorial. Neither my dad nor I ever did this. That was sure nice of them...

I hate myself. I'm such a terrible person to not memorialize her as I should. These past few days I've been hurting inside, feeling depressed. I smelled ciguarette in my car and thought she might be visiting. She probably is visiting me. I'm tired and have a headache on all this.