This week I have been catching up on chores around the house and errands. I have been super busy and a little stressed up the job search process including phone interviews and just e-mail communications. I should not let this stress me out, but it really got to me early this week. My mind needs to conquer the anxiety.. like a honey badger.

Today I cleaned up around the house, accomplished a lot, but I still need to clean the upstairs master bathroom. I'll do that tomorrow. This week I have not made it to the gym, bad me, but I have taken walks on the Monon trail. This is my week after recovering from the flu, I am ramping up my energy. I gained some weight from the last 3 weeks and all the stress hormones going thru my body that I need to loose!

With the stress during most of the week except today and part of yesterday my sleep schedule and energy has been out of whack!

I have so much to do in accomplishing things.

I need to finish cleaning the house and dejunking items I do not need. I also need to get quotes about work to resurface the kitchen counters and the flooring.. and maybe a few other items in the house.. to prepare for the situation that I have to place it on the market.

Sometimes I think about the honey badger and how I see myself being or wanting to be like a honey badger.. fearless in life. If I had to choose an animal that describes me.. or what I would like to be like in life.. it may be a honey badger.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4r7wHMg5Yjg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c81bcjyfn6U

Why don't I just DO... in life..??????????

I have dreams... just DO it

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I need to get back to my studying and refreshing on engineering topics.. and also to prepare for some phone interviews coming up. I'm still trying to find a job in Indiana but am starting to lose hope now. I am now applying to jobs in the power/utilities industry out of state. There just isn't very many of those jobs available in Indianapolis or Indiana. Pray for me. I am putting my faith in God to guide me where to go next.

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I got flowers from my boyfriend on Valentine's Day. I was not expecting them and thinking he would not send them but he did. Getting flowers on Valentine's Day is really special to women even though men try to think otherwise.. give flowers or other gifts. I am making sweeties for my boyfriend.. baking him tasty treats for the weekend when I see him. Normally I would like to have sent him a care package to his work but last week I was sick until Friday afternoon.

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I am trying to decide where in this country would be a good place to live. I am considering weather, cost of living, housing costs, taxes, universities, culture, etc... I am now considering relocation options but am going to be very selective at first.. I don't want recruiters hounding me for jobs out of state just yet, I want them to be focusing on opportunities in Indiana. I am hand picking companies out of state to apply to.

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The lady two houses down the street is selling her house for 175k. She has the same number of bedrooms and baths , but 800 sqft less than me. I owe 199k on the house still. If I had to sell, accounting for realtor, etc fees, I'm not sure what is going to happen or how to handle a loss situation. I paid 213k for my house. That sort of worries me.. why is she selling so cheaply, is the house shit inside?

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Being independent and away from family kind of scares me. Right now I'm only 2 1/2 hr drive from my dad in case of emergencies.. what if I were like 10 hr drive?

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I have faith God will take care of me some how