gee i am sorry i triggered the ex-apo a-hole to write back bitching at everyone. but it is just damn funny. he should rant in his live journal not the list serve. who has a live journal in apo that i don't know of?

my favorite quote was:

"And then there are all the fun tales about how this
brother wants to screw this brother, and how this
brother is hot, and how this brother is jealous of
another brother. Oh yes, the LiveJournals are fun."

i don't remember reading about this anybody's journal. maybe the jealously one applies to me. but i really didn't mean it. i was just really depressed that night. so who wrote that the rest of the stuff? hehe

i am sorry. i laugh at stupid things. i hope nobody in particular was offended. a few probably were disgusted by his e-mail. i've notcied that ever since i went limited last fall, the chapter has been going downhill, and not uphill. i have just a tiny idea of some thngs that happened during my absense, but am lacking in details and want answers. nobody who was there seems to want to open up and tell me, why.. why all these people depledged, why a person attacked another, why brothers wrote in their ljs on how they were upset with others.

so anyhow, i want to see the chapter come closer, not separate into little factions.

the ex-apo a-hole is free to rant in the comment place, cause i really don't care. i'll just laugh at you!

took a shower tonight. god i needed it. oh my goodness do i ever feel so clean and wonderful. i am thinking of making time out of day everyday for this feeling. the only bad thing is, my skin becomes very sensitive and dry. in other words i itch. so iend up having to pour lots of intensive care dry skin body lotion on.

need to call my dad for advice. the prof e-mailed me back. not good. i might be pulled into honor council. do i even have a chance if it is against the professor? i have no idea. it's not fair. he should take partial responsibility for this too.

other than that i am ok. i got a 92 on my physics test and i don't even feel happy. i am tired. i need a day off tomorrow is a day off for me. well nto really. it is a day i don't have to be in class. but i gotta do work. i need a real day off. but that won't happen. i always have homework, i always have studying. funny. this summer i bored out of my mind and all i wanted was to be back here at school. i want to be at school, really i do, but could it be reasonable to have free days? i want to play sims. i want to sleep, dream, and cuddle in bed with my pound puppy. i want to watch a funny movie with my friends. i want to go out dancing. i want to smile.

today during mass (ash wednesday mass) i thought about a few things. i prayed to god for a few things just for me this time. katie needs a break. katie needs a little more love. katie needs to feel apprecited and wanted. katie needs someone special. i am waiting for God to send me that person. I really have a lot of faith and believe the Lord will pick the person right for me and let me know who and when. seeing all the valentines celebrations across campus didn't help. btw, monday night, there was a valentine party going on in the wehrenberg hall 2nd floor. they served homemade crepes while I tried to create a valentine with glitter and some creativity for someone really special who needs a special valentine - my dad. so hopefully he'll enjoy it when i see him this saturday. lauren won't tell me who her valenitne is for. damn i wanna know. she didn't tell erin, her roomate, either. i want to know who my friends have crushes on. i got to, to be a friend, gotta know that stuff. hehe

speaking of valentines, i hope one of my classmates doesn't come to my dorm room again and embarass me again like last year. well it was nice to get a valentine (red rose too). but ???? and i am probably on the lower end of his list. he's a ladies guy. of course u laugh at him.

i really wanted to make candygrams for all my friends this year for v-day. it would have been cool. but i have a big reason why i haven't gotten around to this-- time.

ok i should shut up now and go do laundry. i'll be back