Well most of my worries for the semester are over. I completed my final project about a week and a half ago, but for the last week up until Sunday night I was writing up the final report on it. I'm hoping to get an A in the class for all the hard-work I did, but know what will happen. I should at minimum get a B, which would be acceptable but I'm really needing an A to get my GPA above 3.1 to further conviince myself that I can graduate next May.

Anyways, I think all will be well..

My final project report is available online if you would like to read it:


GENCO Investment Strategies by Simulation
for Demand-Side Role for Investments and Capacity Adequacy

It's been awhile since I have been feeling up to writing about my life. I've got a lot on my mind. Here's on thing

My Health

I've had some walking flu for the past few weeks. Fortunately, I've been able to force myself to get 7-8 hrs of sleep each night, and eat decent meals.
Last night I thought I was going to die. I have a real digestion problem and need to go see the doctor about it, because this isn't the first time its happened, and have had this for a few months but didn't do anything about it because for some reason I've been too busy to do something about my health. Sometimes if I overeat I pay for it later in the day in the form of the worst pain aches on my left bottom side.. kind of like in my intestines, I do not know my own anatomy. But I do know it is abnormal and I need to get it investigated.

I put off working out at the gym for almost the last month and don't anybody get on my case about it because of the flu and final project that I needed to complete for school.I plan on starting back my routine in full swing this weekend.

I'm going through some stress all over again like what happened when he was at the academy, but this time it means more to me than ever. I fear Joe uxsquared will fail his second and FINAL attempt on his third evaluation. He's already passed the first two evaluations and am very proud of him. From what he tells me, the third evaluation is like the kobashi maru, an impossible exam that only a superman can pass. It seems that it takes a normal amount of air traffic control situation and turns it into something that will almost never ever happen, and yet.. he has to prove he is superman next Monday, or else... or else what? They say.. sorry .. good bye.. after like MONTHS of training him and investing money into him? Shouldn't they be saying good bye to the trainer? What does that mean to his career? What does that mean to our relationship? My attractions to him? Our possibile futures?

How is it that your future careeer comes down to passing one exam? How come they don't give cushion and extra training? He's not the first to fail the third evaluation and won't be the last.. and yet.. they would be willing to fire him over this? I do not pretend to understand them...it sort of pisses me off. Joe needs to get certified, and if that will open up other doors for him for his career. It is like a degree for someone who needs a degree to work in a field, not just being an "air traffic controller", he could work other jobs, less stressful and less demanding, or more rewarding, but the basic requirement is certification.