Took a half sick day off work. That's all I'm going to say about that.

Later this evening I decided to give the cats a grooming and bath. They both screamed bloody murder but the grey tabby started to irritate me when he kept jumping out of the bath tub and I'm chasing him around trying to put him back. We did not have a pleasant evening. But a few hours later they decided to make peace with me and they started rubbing against me and purring. That's a good sign.

I'm not celebrating St Patrick's Day by going out anywhere. I often spend drinking holidays at home because I fear drunk drivers and the fatalities. The real reason is I have no friends or parties to go to. I want to change that part of my life. People need friends to do things with...

Speaking of which I'm starting to talk to some people online. Maybe we can met at a coffee shop and play some board games. They seem into sci-fi.

I've got a problem. I spend too much time cleaning and organizing my apartment, especially my kitchen. I spend hours a day making sure things are neat and clean. What's funny is that I haven't done much work on my second bedroom aka office/entertainment/cat room. I usually spend a good friday night or saturday vacuuming, polishing, sanitizing, or treating furniture.

Recovered from the period. Done. It was less severe than most. Friday I started and was feverish pretty much all day. Saturday I didn't want to go anywhere because of it. Sunday I started to feel like going out, which I did.

The cat Dana has a vet appointment at the cat care clinic this Thursday. He's still on his antiobotics and I haven't seen him stooping around the apartment anymore. That's good but he's still going to finish his medicine.

I am planning on going to the Carmel BMV (Bureau of Motor Vehichles) this Wednesday to try and get vehicle registration, drivers license, and state id. I hate being reliant on government issue documentation. I feel that without any id I'd be like homeless in the world!

Felt a little lonely today. I can't believe this month is flying by so quickly and I can't believe Easter is this Sunday. I'm driving to visit the parents in Hammond and my boyfriend is going to join us for Easter dinner. I look forward to seeing him. I kind of miss my boyfriend and I thought about my life and that coming here was still the best decision. I hated the living and financial situation where I was before. Someone at work told me that they bought a condo in the area for 105k with an attached garage and that renting was stupid (those were some nice condos btw). Yes, but the same people who buy are renting while they are single or new to the area. I am not jumping to buy something so soon. I really want to be engaged or married before I move into a house and move into a house with a man and ring on my finger. There is hope. But there are things I need to do to increase the probability of that.


Overate for dinner. I was feeling sick so I ate more than I should have for dinner. This weekend I picked up some ice cream, something new and different. Something that brought happiness to my soul and something that I could only get at certain mexican restaurants.

It was fried ice cream basically cinnamon, honey, tortilla shells, honey grams, very tasty.

Here is a recipe for Cinnamon Fried Ice Cream Recipe which is similar.




While searching the internet for the website I came across an ice cream brand and flavor I'd like to try one day:

Bart's Homemade Ice Cream

Three Geeks and a Red Head: Coconut Ice Cream, Coconut flakes, Chocolate Chunks, Fudge Brownies and a Red Raspberry Swirl.

Just thought that was cool :)

I've been feeling special sympathy for frankprovo because they closed the cheesebuger in paradise near him. I'm so so sorry.

What else is going on? I took some photos of Carmel not too many of my apartment. I took this photos on a little walk around the apartment and town. More to come. I placed some photos on my facebook albumn temporarily. It is a project of mine to get my photo gallery back online and organized, amongst other things!

See Some Photos of My Apartment from the outside and Carmel, IN

It's raining right now outside.

Had another one of those evenings where I mopped around in bed and laid around, cried, and felt terrible and about past, present, and future, when I should have no reason too. I need to be working my second exam, and I have no excuse.. I played my Sims2 game for an hour, ate dinner, briefly talked with Joe, and about his financial situation- a terrible topic, and then took a nap for an hour. I am in peaceful slumber and that mental state half-way of being awake and in dreams.. where you know you can lay in bed without any cares in the world.

But my heart kept racing and my thoughts kept racing through my head, mostly about a lot os stupid stuff, like the tv episodes I watched Sunday night, or the anxieties I have about my body, my exam, my career, my future. The beatles woke me up.. but I woke up about 10 seconds before the song starts...

Then as I walk out of the bedroom the white fat cat prince runs to the kitchen in anticipation and cries multiple times when he doesn't see any fancy feast wet food lying in his dish when he's got plenty all he can eat dry food. The grey cat follows me into the bathroom to whine and rub against me, and incessant meowing for his fancy feast. I imagine my kids will be somewhat similar.. but I hope they will have another parent to whine half the time.

A lot of it revolves around my current relationship, my living situation, and my hopes for the future. Funny , life it is something else.

Took a look at my legs in the bathroom and thought I looked beastly and couldn't remember the last time I looked down there and shaved, oh yes, it had to have been like half a month ago, and my legs looked like they hadn't been shaved all winter. Hairy!! I must be slowly becoming a man :)

I laid on the couch for half an hour. The plaid couch that I paid about $900 about 4 years ago. It has a sofa sleeper, but I'm afraid my last guest must have bent the steel frame out of wake, because it now doesn't come out and I cannot bend back the steel to get it to unfold. When I move, if I can move, I will definately buy new furntiture that is better and won't attract cat hair.

As I laid on the couch I could not get myself to get up and do anything, anything at all. It's sad. I kept looking at my bachelor's degree hanging up above my fireplace and the empty diploma frame for my master's. This has been a lot to accomplish in life, but what did I give up and not pursue that is going to affect my future and happiness in life? Why did I let myself go and not glue my friendships and relationships together stronger?

I want the American dream, just like everybody else. Well I feel that I worked hard to get educated in order to achieve it. Well where is it? I want to be able to afford my own place and have some money left over to enjoy it. I want to be married to a man who can contribute more than his fair share and provide for me if I should decide to be a stay-at-home or part-time mom. I want kids and and family and friends. My family relations are almost nonexistent.

At Easter we got together to eat and that was all. Family is not a dinner every major holiday, but it seems that way for me.

I guess it is what is is, and fantasize about marrying into a decent sized and close family.

What made me even more depressed is I think Joe does not have the motivation to provide these things for me. Love is Love, but Life takes more than love alone. My logical side has gotten me where I am today, and I'm going to count on it for the future.

A man is driving along a high way
and sees a rabbit jump out
across the middle of the road.
He swerves to avoid hitting it,
but unfortunately the rabbit jumps right in front of the car.

The driver, a sensitive man as well as an animal lover, pulls over and
gets out to see what has become of the rabbit. Much to his dismay, the
rabbit is dead.

The driver feels so awful
that he begins to cry.

A beautiful blonde woman
driving down the highway
sees a man crying on the
side of the road and pulls over.
She steps out of the car
and asks the man what's wrong.

"I feel terrible," ! he explains,
"I accidentally hit this rabbit
and killed it! ."

The blonde says, "Don't worry."
She runs to her car and pulls out a spray can. She walks! over to the
limp, dead rabbit, bends down, and sprays the contents onto the rabbit.

The rabbit jumps up, waves its paw at the two of them and hops off down
the road.

Ten feet away the rabbit stops,
turns around and waves again, he hops down the road another 10 feet,
turns and waves, hops another ten feet, turns and waves, and repeats
this again and again and again, until he hops out of sight.

The man is astonished.
He runs over to the woman and demands, "What is in that can?
What did you spray on that rabbit?"

The woman turns the can around
so that the man can read the label.
It says..


Are you ready for this?


Are you sure?


This is bad!


It's definitely a Blonde Joke!


You know you could just click off and not read the punch line....


You can still delete it


You know you're gonna be sorry


Last chance


OK, here it is


It says,


"Hair Spray -
Restores life to dead hair, and adds permanent wave."


Happy Easter!!!