I'm at home.

Right now... I feel empty.. without purpose.

I wrote down some goals at work for my weekend plans. They're currently in my car with a bunch of other stuff that I need to clean out because I was too lazy to do that yet.

I think I just need to sleep in tomorrow, take a shower, do some reading, and cleaning, and unpacking. I am cleaning and re-organizing the stuff I already have in the apartment.. avoiding the stuff I need to unpack.

My fitness stuff... is in the boxes. I can still play DDR but I feel so incredibly lazy right now. What is wrong with me? *Yawn* I gained a few pounds that I had lost. This has got to change.

I think I may have discovered what the root of most of my problems is:

Cable TV. It's not that I am a disastisfied customer, it's just my time can better be spent getting things done and being more productive with my time. TV is a great outlet to relax and escape from life. So can DVD's and video games, which do not cost $110 a month and of which I already have and use infrequently. I wasted most of my day in front of the TV. I got up during commerical breaks to tidy up around the apartment, except when Prince cuddled up to me oh so ever cutely and I could not let the cute kitty off my belly and chest.

I do love the Comcast internet though... That's about half my bill. And I use it often productively. Most sites I visit are livejournal, news, e-mail, and that's pretty much it.

So today I pretty much slept in, watched TV, took an afternoon nap, walked around the park, ate pizza, cleaned my closet of winter clothes and shoes and brough out the spring/summer clothes and realized how much big I have gotten since a few years ago and need to be serious. I generally eat when I am bored.. and must get away from that.

I looked at townhome, condo, and home prices for the areas I wanted to live in. They look ridiculous. I mean, its not naperville, its not san francsico, wtf?

I got despaired, butI think things will only get better.

Tomorrow I've got lots to do at work, tomorrow night I plan on working out, and ironing my wardrobe. I've got lots of chores to do!

My Life Goals

weight - by this time next year I want to see myself at maybe 130 lbs? wearing < 10 size clothes

appearance - I want my teeth fixed. I want better glasses. I want to dress more classy and have my hair look better. I want to upkeep my nails and beauty more frequently than I do now

money - I want the comfort of not having to go into the grocery store and plan my dinner by what's on sale. I want to be comfortable with being able to buy steaks, meat, etc. I want a nice cash reserve in my savings for emergencies.

marriage - I want to be married by 30 or engaged to a man who makes as much or more than me and can provide emotional, financial, and physical security for me and my children.

church - I want (need) to be involved in a Christian church and community. I need to read and learn the bible because my parents never taught me this nor took me to church (terrible isn't it ?)

kids - I want to have at least 3 kids (at least a girl and a boy) and give them lots of love and a hopeful life.

career - I am doing excellent in this life goal. I need to continue to find ways to make achievements

family - I want to marry into a large close-knit family

pets - I hope my cats will stay with me forever..! I want them too have more space too!

house - as much as I am blessed to have a roof over my head and my own private space, I hope to have a nice house in a nice neighboorhood with parks.

community - I want to be more involved in the community

friends - I want to be more involved and closer to my friends and develop new relationships

volunteer - I want to volunteer some of my time (like at a church or habitat for humanity)

education - I want to continue this, but most of my formal education life goal will be completed this May. this does not include the engineering licensure exam I will have to study and pass next year.

recreation - I want to hike on trails, camp in the woods, enjoy outdoor activies, learn to sew clothing, learn home economics, learn how to cook different foods, art, sculpt, etc

skills - I need to continue my career skills but also learn home-life skills such as home maintenance, car maintenance, self-defence, etc..

hobbies - this is explained under recreation

health - I need to stop eating out all the time and eat less fatty foods and more fruits and vegetables.

10 Reasons You Aren't Rich

By Jeffrey Strain

gotten from csixty4

First I want to thank roseprofessor for sending me a nice postcard of Newport, Rhode Island. Keep those roses growing strong.

I haven't been feeling much like writing on live journal lately. I've been having a lot on my mind lately. Stress with school, work, boyfriend, and myself. I've also been feeling kind fo depressed and fat, and lazy.

Balance. Think about balance. I'm also realizing that as much as I like Joe's company it's a distraction from the goals and things I want to accomplish during my free time like exercise, study, sleep, and get personal things done.

My life is going to change after I get out of school. I keep telling myself that.

Today in the mail I received the $110 diploma frame that I ordered through the school's preferred vendor. It's lovely and a bit bigger than my undergraduate degree. I'm not attending the ceremony and do not how I'm going to get through the red tape to get my degree mailed to me.

I'm probably going to have two parties. The first will be a barbecure at my dad's house in Hammond, Indiana with all his friends and our family. My friends are welcome to come to if they want to drive an hour there and an hour back if they got nothing better to do and want to get out. Then I'm going to try and rent the clubhouse at my apartment complex for my graduation party. I'd like to have Panda Express catering (Dave and Amy, I'm stealing your catering idea~!)

So what are my plans after getting done with school?

Drink... drink... oh wait... seriously! I'm looking forward to getting my serious regarding my health and exercise goals.
Another goal of mine uis to read and learn as much as I can about real estate, buying my first home, mortgages, home maintenance, and other issues regarding home ownership.

I will achieve my goals.

I will buy a place to live this fall and it will be a smart decision.

I will be healthier this fall.

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