I'm sipping on a diet coke, jamming to smashing pumpkins. I don't give a shit about anything except me and now. It's nice to be free to do whatever I want because I'm an adult and am n charge of me.



Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage


Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
Come into my life forever
The crumbled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own
Love is suicide



Dead eyes, are you just like me?

I'm in a heavy metal mood :0

there's no fucking easy way to cancel my account/service without having to call a service rep 9-5 m-f. god knows how difficult it is going to be to reach them to cancel. thank-goodness i have american express and they can automatically block their asses off my card if i get no access to customer service tomorrow..

that is why i use american express. thank-you

Fragile, seems I opened up to quick and all my dreams were woken up
I slowly lost my fight
with every single man a river cried

I had no sensation, completely numb I felt no satisfaction
I thought no one could ever get me high again
I swear I was not looking

I've waited so long, I thought the real thing was a fake, I thought it was a tool to break me down
you prove me wrong again

If love were liquid it would drown me in a placeless place refine me,
in a heart shape come around me and then melt me slowly down
if love were human it would know me in a lost space come and show me,
hold me and control me and then melt me slowly down, like chocolate

Tastes so good my hearts been mended, who'd have thought it would?
an empty bed and still I won the catch, a man who I love and who loves me back

I've waited so long for love to heal me, so I'd feel it, thought it wasn't real and then you came
you prove me wrong again

If love were liquid it would drown me in a placeless place refine me,
in a heart shape come around me and then melt me slowly down
if love were human it would know me in a lost space come and show me,
hold me and control me and then melt me slowly down, like chocolate

Come here, zoom in, catch the smile
there's no doubt it's for you and I'm addicted tonight

Just one look boy to mellow it out
just one heart here to save me now
your candy kisses are sweet I know
hold me tight baby, don't let go

Kylie Minogue - Chocolate lyrics

another version

I'm feeling unusually well today. My self-esteem seems to be a little more radiant than usual and my mood face just turned from gloom to SMILEY. Happy and Nice Katie is here.

It's Good To Be Alive - Got the countdown mix masters stuck in my head. I'd love to disco if I only knew how to and not to embarass myself. I once saw a picture of my dad with sideburns in a white disco 70's outfit and thought that was wild! I'd love to post it if he'd send me it hehe

Then I've been bouncing to T'Pau's Heart and Soul song repeatedly while cleaning the kitchen and then I danced with my cats to Vitamin C's SMILE song which was played multiple times. Both my cats loved it. They got to dance and bounce and purr excitedly. My laundry got put away and my bed got made.

My apartment is to my normal standard for now. I made a late dinner (8 pm ish) of tacos! Then I played my Sims2 game for about an hour

Let me tell you about my Sims2 family -

The Pleasant Family

Well in the original game there was a family called the Pleasant family living in Pleasantville and as pleasant as it may sound, they were an odd bunch with flaws that threatened the family bonds. The two teenage sisters Angela and Lilith fought all the time. Parents Daniel and Mary-Sue were the tightest couple of old folks in love, however Daniel's secret life aspirations of romance and playboy once tore them apart.. briefly. Mrs Pleasant laughed loudly and heartedly at the two and decided to pursue her secret aspiration - hitting her husband and family up style. She wanted luxurious paintings, sculptures, and more and more expensive items in her house. Her desire for money was running short.





Well Angela and Lilith the two daughters grew up and they hatred of each other grew stronger. Lilith became friends with this easy-going friendly guy named Tutrle. Turtle lived with a bunch of other European guys but that didn't scare Lillith. She wanted to hang with him more and he asked her to move in with him and his buds. Lilith took the opportunity to move the heck out of the house but Angela was accidently moved with her. So Lilith and Angela found themselves at the doorsteps of the Entourage family (Turtle's bachelor pad) with suitcase in hand. Turtle's house was not a house, but a Bevery Hills 4 star mansion. Turtle, having two million in the bank, made them both instantly rich. See, in the sim world, if you move in a with a rich sim, you get part of their fortune. Well folks, Angela did just that. She moved back into the Pleasant house and brought with her about 200,000 simoleans of fortunate and left her sister at Hollywood. Her mother was very proud of her accomplishment, but her father dearly missed his other daughter Lilith, fortunately, he was the only one.

With Lilith out of the house and the family once again in peace and happiness, Angela looked towards her future. She got a job in the athletic track, following in her father's footsteps while kindling a friendship rom her teenage years with a nice guy named Joe Broke. Joe came from a broken family and had to support himself on a minimum wage job while attending high school and living alone. His mother died of the worst kind of disaterous death.. sickness and negative aspiration. She died a slow and painful death. Angela supported Joe throughout the whole ordeal and visited him pretty much everyday. She was his best friend and they dated and went steady. Nothing else mattered to Joe but Angela. It was no surprise that when they became of age, Joe popped the very important question and Angela excitingly accepted. Since Joe had no family of his own (immediate family), he decided to move in with Angela.

The Pleasant family flourished. Joe continue to pursue his career in the medicine track. He worked his way up from orderly, to intern, to general practioner, and finally up to surgeon. Angela's still working her way up the athletic career but had to take some time away from work for family. Angela and Joe gave birth to Peter and they loved him dearly. Joe, with the aspiration of family bliss, could not wait for another child, and they adopted a boy named Robi while Angela was pregnant with Charming. After Charming was born Joe desired 20 children and Angela refused to birth any more. That was the end of the child rearing.

Mary-Sue pleasant or "grandma" died not long after Peter was born and grown into a toddler. Peter was best friends with his grandma and cried very much after her death. Mary-Sue's life aspirations were filled and she died a happy woman in platimum state of aspiration. The Grim Reaper greeted her with hula dancers and a party drink. Her tombstone was golden and it is in its special spot of the Pleasant property with a flowerbed, a reflection pond, and a chair to view and mourn the tombstone.





After his wife died, Daniel decided to further pursue his romantic intentions with multiple sims (as an elder no less). He made it out with Brandi, Lauren- the french maid, Andrea, and another girl whome I forgot now! Before he dies he wants to wooho with at least 5 different Sims and I'm sure that will like change to 10 once he reaches that goal. He's only got a few days of his golden years left. He's got his eyes on Emily and the soccer mom he's seen picking up the kids playing around Charming.




Robi and Peter grew into teenagers. They're both intent on getting their first kiss and they've been eyeing the same girl Meadow which may present a problem. The apple didn't fall too far from the tree in regards to taking after his grandfather. He's a lover boy at heart. Peter takes after his mom, and is actually best friends with her. He's a social butterfly with the primary objective of making as many friends and best friends as possible.

Angela did something naughty today for the first time in her marriage she cheated on her husband Joe while he was at work with that european stud E Entourage. They've become best friends in the past few days and Angela took a bold step of stealing a kiss and it lead to more than she bargained for...

What will happen to the Pleasant family? Will Daniel achieve his lifelong fantasy of whooing 5 different Sims and dying in a state of platinum aspiration only to be bured next to his wife Mary-Sue? Will Angela ever see E again and will she get caught in the act and ruin her long marriage to Joe? Will Joe be able to reach the top of his career before he becomes an elder? What drama will transpire between the two teenage boys Robi and Peter who adore the same girl, and what will their fate be and will young Charming live up to his parent's expectations of dazzling success???

Gotta play some more...